What's it like having Clusters ?

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Dear Friends

 

 

I’ve been asked – What are Clusters like?

 

 

 

Well to me, it’s like:

 

 

Being leathered in the head around a boxing ring by Mike Tyson in Knuckledusters whilst giving natural birth through your eyeball and all the time some horrible little monster is clinging to your head and shoving a burning hot steel rod type skewer, straight through your eye and out of your skull causing a piercing pain so bad, you just want to cut your own head off and die!! No pain killer, not even morphine intravenously injected will help deal with the pain, your just going to have to work through it as best you can.

 

So you take the beating and you swear every time that your under attack, you’re only seconds from death convinced your head will explode!! and in a strange sort of way bring relief from the suffering ………. but NO ………. that’s not to be.

 

No easy way out of this condition ………

 

Clusters are going to try and break you, rip your life apart and take over your soul ….. and all you can do ………. is take the beatings from the beast and pray you’ve got enough strength to carry on once it’s over ………. knowing that it won’t be long before the next visit ………. and the process will start all over again.

 

Cluster’s don’t just stop there …… they effect everyone around you too, family, friends and work colleagues, attacks can be horrendous to observe and can have a lasting effect on those who witness them.

 

And no mercy is ever shown ……….

 

The beast can sneak up and attack you at anytime and anywhere during a bout (period of attacks) making life pretty hard most of the time, feeling scared of leaving the home and just waiting in anticipation for the next battle to begin.

 

Some days you feel you win ………. but you never come out on top!!

 

 

 

 

That’s what Clusters are like for me.

 

Eric