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You are not crazy. The fact that you pull does not mean that you do not have your s*** together. It may also not mean that you are dealing with deeper psychological issues or hiding from past trauma. It is an impulse control disorder, that's it. And there are ways to lessen its impact. Don't depend on what your doctor or health professional says - do your own research. They may not know the condition well themselves and could be giving you unhelpful advice. Find others affected and see what has worked for them.