I wasn't crazy

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I went years wondering what was wrong with me. I thought I was just imagining it or that I was a moral failure as a person. I was diagnosed with bipolar 2 after 13 years of symptoms. Then my husband pointed out that my symptoms coordinated with my monthly cycle. I did some online research and learned that sometimes PMDD is wrongly diagnosed as bipolar 2. Now I am undergoing a process of ruling out one or the other (hopefully it is not both). 

All symptoms worsened when I became pregnant, and that was the time I most considered suicide. I later had my tubes out when we realized it would not be a good idea to go through that again. Now I am considering a hysterectomy as a final effort of full relief. Currently researching that possibility.