My pain

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Today I celebrate 6 years of pain 6 years ago this month I was told I had Trigerminal Neuralgia I had a surgery where they went through my face up to my brain That did not work it only made it worse and that doctor was lovely and kind enough To call me into his office to tell me that I had type two trigerminal neuralgia there's no hope for me I was like a cancer patient there's just nothing they could do well I didn't believe that doctor so I continued on going To some of the top neurologists  in New York hoping for results I had another surgery where they cut my brain open and that made it even worse I take more medicine then I can imagine I don't know what else to do but get up every day well lately it's been harder to do that the pain is so bad and I don't think I can handle anything else I have a wonderful husband who helps me with everything He is a wonderful person and I'm so thankful hes been here with me Through all of this but sometimes I don't know how much more I can take There's only one other choice in this world to get rid of the pain and I am not willing to do so today I celebrate 6 years of pain because it has not taken me and I am not going to let it And I will never give up hope