rough road

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I'll make a really long story short for you ;) 

When I was a young girl my father was sent to prison, my parents divorced, and my mother sent my sister and I to live with family who were strangers to us in a new state. My mom moved with us a few months later. She then met a man, who would utlimately become my stepdad, and later become my abuser.

He sexually abused me for years before I became strong enough to turn him in (with the help of his daughter). He used to tell me I had beautiful hair, it was long and shiny, and it was in fact beautiful. In my mind if he thought I was ugly he wouldn't hurt me any more....I began pulling my hair when I was 11. After I reported the abuse, nothing was done! My mother made me move out of my home(I was 16).

Fast forward to my adult years when he was convicted of touching another little girl (I was grown and had 2 daughters of my own). It became known to the police that I had been abused as well as a child, and he finally paid for hurting me and the other little girl. This started my pulling pattern again.

He was recently released from prison, and my mother remarried him! She had divorced him while he was in prison, and we began repairing our broken relationship, this shattered it all! Now my pulling is at it's worst! I'm struggling with forgiveness and pain, but I will overcome!!!!!